"Luna, if only you could understand" was how the letter began. I kept reading:
"if you continue to suppress the love you feel, your feelings, your emotions, you will bitterly regret it." I wiped away a tear, I knew exactly what this was about.
"That laughter, those smiles and you who did not share the depth of your love for them. I know it is because you were betrayed by those who loved you, but you paid for that silence when they left. Follow the advice they gave you: live without regrets! Stop surviving and start living! Open up, take risks, fall and get up again! I know you can do it, God created you for a reason: be strong and courageous! Do not give in to fear but continue to walk in the light of life, to try, to take risks and to persevere! Never give up. Make a Difference."
With my hand over my mouth, I reflected on the words my 14-year-old self had written.
Now that I was 34, those words touched me differently. I had managed to overcome that pain after 7 years, and I was grateful to God for the loyal friends and husband He had put by my side. I felt the pain of that younger me and I almost wanted to comfort her, telling her that everything would be okay and that I admired her strength and how she wanted to encourage me with that fighting spirit that would never let me give up. Persevering in life is important, because you never know when everything will change. Now I was an adult, capable of loving and being loved. I had learned my lesson: I have to share my affection, what I appreciate and think of the people around me. This small action increased my self-esteem and the beautiful thing about sharing positivity is that it always comes back to you!
Fear immobilizes us, depresses us but love unites us, strengthens us and gives us hope. Never give up, always hope for the best. No matter how hard life tries, you stay afloat and reach out to the sky. God will help you.
In my anguish, God helped me. I thought I would always be alone but He promises us that He will never leave us alone. Because He is always with us, yes, but also because He is a good Father and knows how to bring the right people on our path.
For me, life began as a nightmare but it turned into a fairy tale. Of course, there is no shortage of wolves but there are also princesses, who are the precious friends and Prince Charming, that the Lord encourages to walk with us and fight together for our relationship.
In fact, today I have faithful friends for 15 years, who have encouraged me during the ups and downs of life, reminding me that sharing, with the right people, is important. I have also had a partner for about 12 years who continues to exceed my expectations in terms of sweetness and tenderness. I still get emotional when he listens to deeply romantic songs and ends up dedicating them to me, truly incredible. God is good! He is capable of always surprising you.
Therefore, despite the tear that came out of a first reading, even if I appreciated the advice, it is a lesson that I have already learned. For this reason I decided to honor the young me, reading the letter to my partner, before closing this chapter forever.
I concluded by saying:
"Goodbye Luna of the past. Now I have grown up, things have changed."
So I let the letter go into the fireplace and while smiling, I made my way into my husband's arms.
We drank a delicious hot chocolate and, in front of the fireplace, under a warm wool blanket, we laughed with joy and watched a new movie together.
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