I would like to share this testimony, in the hope that it can make a difference in someone's life. I hope you can find comfort in knowing that you are not alone.
I grew up in a Christian family, and although I had positive experiences with faith (as a child I remember seeing Jesus in dreams and having premonitory dreams from God), the environment I lived in was toxic and this has had an impact on my life.
In adolescence I started having violent visions, visions that scared me because I saw things that I didn't want to do or even think about.
Furthermore I met a person who, as well as having created a trauma for me, re-proposed the same dysfunctional family dynamics from which the Lord had freed me.
This person was interested in new age and had the opportunity to practice it in the past, this sparked an interest in me that led me to delve deeper into the topic, spirituality also fascinated me because of the experiences of some family members, so I bought some books and I started practicing and reading tarot cards, even though I believed and prayed to God every day.
I was initially encouraged, but then, time after time, I became more and more sad and deeply distressed. I was falling into a spiral of darkness.
I also started practicing guided meditation with a CD where first you have to relax and then be "led" by "spiritual guides" who would show you things you don't know. Unfortunately I was curious to know things about past lives and to expand my knowledge. I then let myself be "guided" and during the meditations I saw dead animals and people, but at that moment I wasn't scared, I was more curious.
I had no idea where I was getting myself into.
In fact a few years later I discovered through an acquaintance who had read the satanic bible, that these "spiritual guides" were demons. It is clear that these things should not be joked about. Despite ignorance, the Lord hasn't let go of His hold on me and that goes for you too.
I started to feel really scared when I started reading and trying to practice vivid dreams.
Before falling asleep, I began to see the image of a cat and hear a voice, I did not understand what it was telling me, but my soul felt that it was nothing good, as I was sweating cold and shaking with fear. Then when I saw Bettie Page's story on television and how she started hearing voices, I was even more scared.
One day I heard something fall abruptly on the floor, but when I went up to check I didn't see anything, everything was as usual, even the person who was there with me had heard it but didn't know how to explain it.
In the evening, when I tried to fall asleep, I still heard the voice, I was shaking and I was sweating cold. Out of fear, I began to ask God to chase away the voice and He did so immediately, instantly.
The next day, however, I practiced the vivid dream again and as a result I heard the voice again and shaked in a cold sweat. I asked God again to chase it away and He did.
Hallelujah💖
The name of Jesus is powerful:
James 2:19
You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that and shudder.
Philippians 2:9-11
Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue acknowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.
In that period, a maternal figure had understood that something was wrong with me, even though she didn't know what I was doing. She told me to read the Bible and go to church.
I then tried to read it starting from the Old Testament, but I had the impression that the Lord was pointing His finger at me. I cried because I believed in a God of love and I didn't understand How he could be so severe.
I stopped reading it until one day I went to church and I heard the preacher say:
"God loves you just the way you are. It doesn't matter what you've done. He loves you too much to leave you like this."
I felt seen and accepted. When I started reading the Bible again, I could finally understand that what was written was meant to protect us and that it was a message of love.
The desire to be truly loved was growing in me, I prayed to the Lord to help me get out of the dysfunctional relationship I was in.
The day came when we talked and when I told him that I wanted to follow God, he asked me if I was sure of what I wanted, because I was young and there were still many things I could do, I replied from my heart that with God there is nothing to lose but only to gain.
He asked me 3 times in a row and I told him the same.
In the end he apologized saying he didn't know why he had repeated it three times, it was as if someone else had spoken for him.
Our ways parted and a new chapter began for me. I decided to give my life to God, confirming this choice through baptism.
Step by step the bad visions made room for positive images and my soul began to heal.
I thank the Lord that, even on my worst days, I no longer have that weight, that desperation and oppression that I had before. God brought me out of the darkness and into the light.
Remember that there is hope.
May the Lord heal you in every area of your heart and may He remind you that God gave His only begotten son Jesus to give you abundant life. May the Lord give you His peace and confidence in your heart that you were created with a purpose and that you are deeply loved by your Creator.
In the name of Jesus, I proclaim victory over your life! You will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! In the mighty name of Jesus, amen!🙏🏻💖🕊
Jeremiah 31:3
The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying:
“I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness
Psalms 23:6
Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
Jeremiah 29.11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
PS: if you have approached the "spiritual" because you are interested in the gifts that God has given you (precognitive dreams, visions, words of knowledge,...) know that only in Him you can cultivate them in a healthy way, encouraging others and even yourself.
In fact it is written:
1 Corinthians 12:7-11
Now to each one the manifestation of the Spirit (Holy Spirit of God) is given for the common good. To one there is given through the Spirit (Holy Spirit of God) a message of wisdom, to another a message of knowledge by means of the same Spirit, to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healing by that one Spirit, to another miraculous powers, to another prophecy, to another distinguishing between spirits, to another speaking in different kinds of tongues, and to still another the interpretation of tongues. All these are the work of one and the same Spirit (Holy Spirit of God), and He distributes them to each one, just as He determines.
You might also be interested in these videos which talk about the prophetic, how God speaks through dreams and Priscilla Shirer: ask God to use your gifts for His glory:
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